astronaut sex

has anyone else seen the previews for the new show, Defying Gravity?

when I did, I howled with laughter.

... and it ain't a comedy.

melt my heart to stone - adele

right under my feet is air made of bricks

that pulls me down and turns me weak for you

i find myself repeating like a broken tune

and i'm forever excusing your intentions

then i give in to my pretendings

which forgive you each time

without me knowing,

they melt my heart to stone

[Chorus:]

and i hear your words that i made up

you say my name like there could be an us

i best tidy up my head i'm the only one 

in love, i'm the only one in love

each and every time i've turned 'round to leave

i feel my heart begin to burst and bleed

so desperately i try to link it with my head

but instead i fall back to my knees

as you tear your way right through me

i forgive you once again

without me knowing, you've burnt my heart to stone

[Chorus]

why do you steal my hand

whenever i'm standing my own ground?

you build me up then leave me there

where i hear your words you made up

i say your name like there should be an us

i best tidy up my head, i'm the only one 

in love, i'm the only one in love

"there is no modern romance"

all of this fantastic rain...

and nobody to kiss under it.

Apocalypse? NOW!

okay, these fires that are surrounding our little town have made me feel like I am living on a different planet. the sun has become this glowing, red THING that casts eerie orange light on my front lawn, the sky is hazy and clouded, and the air smells so weird. Today, walking to the mall to deposit a cheque felt like the earth was about to self-destruct. It was extremely windy, and ash would repeatedly be blown into my face. I felt like I was really walking THROUGH the air, it was so thick. My skin felt dirty walking through it. I was one of the very few people out walking on the sidewalks. People who drove by me looked at me with "Why the hell is she OUT THERE?!" faces. As I was walking, Imogen Heap's "Hide & Seek" came on my iPod, and it made everything even MORE eerie. I really felt like I was in some kind of Hollywood blockbuster in which the world was coming to an end, one small town at a time. Luckily, it rained quite a bit today; hopefully that slowed the fires down a bit. The rain just made the world-is-ending sensation even more prominent. When I got home, I smelled as if I had been sitting by a campfire for hours, instead of walking to the mall and back. eek!

"Flower" - Liz Phair

You act like you're fourteen years old

Everything you say is so

Obnoxious, funny, true, and mean

a blog about things

i'm watching So You Think You Can Dance (of course) and Ellen DeGeneres is a guest judge. I'm not really sure WHY she's there, but I'm totally into it =) I love that woman. I wish she was my aunt, or my mom's best friend or SOMETHING. Speaking of famous relations, I just found out that my friend's boyfriend's sister is a full-on supermodel. This news has brought me to cyber-stalk like I have never cyber-stalked before. She's walked runways for the likes of Marc Jacobs (siiiiigh), and appeared in magazines like NYLON (siiiiigh), Teen Vogue, and Italian ELLE. Simona McIntyre. Google that shit.

I'm so sad that I missed No Doubt and Paramore in Vancouver. Luckily, Sam went, and bought me a t-shirt. I've been wearing it ever since it appeared in my mailbox this morning. THANKS ♥ i totally feel like my grade 7 self again haha.

i went cliff-jumping today with Brietana, Amanda, Dan and others. I'm so glad that I have 3 days off after working 5 days in a row, and that I had PLANS for my first day of freedom. (Mary Murphy just BARKED at Nigel Lythgoe. I just had to interrupt myself to mention that...) I also had my very first Screamer today (i.e. soft-serve ice cream in a slushie) everyone has told me that they're the most amazing things ever, but I beg to differ. Give me actual ice cream over a Screamer any day.

MATHEW THOMAS IS COMING TO VISIT FROM ENGLAND IN 2 DAYS OH MY LANTA I AM EXCITED.

that means Komasket is coming up, too. the whole hippie scene is sooooo not my thing at all (that fuckin' sheesha tent...) but I am very excited to camp with some of my besties for 3 days straight, dancing the night away, swimming, buying cute crafts, and eating more poutine than necessary.

life is good =)

asofterworld

"I have found a way to watch video in your head.

High definition, with instant replay.

It is called having regrets."

-asofterworld

just a question...

is it weird of me to be totally fascinated by MTV's newest show, 16 and Pregnant?

'cause i totally am...

to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die

  i cannot wait for this movie.

  i just CAN'T!

it just might kill me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=65teCIcAAOg

sooooo sexy, hot, beautiful.

i started to cry as soon as it started.

then cried all the way through it.

gawd, i love this show.

if it kills me - jason mraz

hello, tell me you know

yeah, you figured me out

something gave it away

it would be such a beautiful moment

to see the look on your face

to know that i know that you know now

and baby, that's a case of my wishful thinking

you know nothing

well you and i

why, we go carrying on for hours on end

we get along much better 

than you and your boyfriend

well all i really want to do is to love you

a kind much closer than friends use

but i still can't say it after all we've been through

and all i really want from you is to feel me

as the feeling inside keeps building

and i will find a way to you if it kills me

if it kills me

how long can i go on like this,

wishing to kiss you,

before i rightly explode?

well, this double life i lead

isn't healthy for me

in fact, it makes me nervous

if i get caught

i could be risking it all

'cause maybe there's a life that i missed

in case i'm wrong...

if i should be so bold

i'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand

i'd tell you from the start

how i long to be your man

but i never say a word

i guess i'm going to miss my chance again

and all i really want to do is to feel you

yeah, the feeling inside keeps building

i'll find a way to you if it kills me

if it kills me

it might kill me

the limit to your love - feist

there's a limit to your care

so carelessly there

is it truth or dare?

there's a limit to your care

i love i love i love

this dream of going upstream

i love i love i love

the trouble that you give me

i know i know i know

that only i can save me

i'll go i'll go i'll go

right down the road

ashes & wine - a fine frenzy

don't know what to do anymore

i've lost the only love worth fighting for

and i'll drown in my tears' storming sea

that would show you

that would make you hurt like me

all the same

i don't want mud-slinging games

it's just a shame

to let you walk away

is there a chance,

a fragment of light at the end of the tunnel,

a reason to fight?

is there a chance you may change your mind?

or are we ashes and wine?

don't know if our fate's already sealed

this daze is spinning

a circus on a wheel

and i'm ill with the thought of your kiss

intoxicating, coffee-laced, on her lips

shut it out

i've got no claim on you now

not allowed to wear your freedom down

i'll tear myself away

if that is what you need

there is nothing left to say, but...

photobooth

stop doing that!

that thing when you put on one of "our" songs, like "All I Ever Wanted" by Basshunter, or anything by Death Cab for Cutie, and when i go and sneak a glance at you, you're already looking at me with that adorable smile on your face.

just stop, 'cause i don't think i can handle it much longer.

conversations with my mother, pt. 2

"Oh, Emma. You're like an open book. I ask you a question and you tell me something's up with just a pause or a sideways glance."

yup, that's me. and that's kinda how my blog got it's name. i've come to realize this about myself, but having my mom verbally point it out to me showed me that this realization about myself is noticeable to other people.

does that make any sense?

probably not, but it is 12:46 A.M.

sixteen candles. ugh.

lesson learned: just because it's a John Hughes movie starring Molly Ringwald does not mean it will be good.

say anything

"Are you here because you need someone, or are you here because you need me?"

just sayin'

• first day of work at Davison's today. it went really well =) i was surprised at how quickly i learned to use the cashier station! hopefully this will be a job i can actually enjoy a little. plus, i spotted a very cute fruit picker. everyone who works there is SO NICE. i don't work again until the 18th, so that means...
• Kaylee & Quinton's houseboat party is a go. i'm a little nervous. why? because:
  teens + alcohol + boat on water + the summer air + le garçon qui a déjà une blonde = risky business.
• i would like my August issue of Nylon magazine to arrive, please and thank-you.
• i really want to read L.A. Candy. Yeah, Lauren Conrad's book. hey, it's SUMMER. as far as i'm concerned, summer is the time to read cheesy, clichéd, poorly written chick lit with characters who have names like "Gabby Garcia" and "Jane Roberts".
• I WANT MY LAPTOP SO BAD.
• i am loving Kid Cudi's music. download "The Prayer".
• at college this fall, i will be taking University Writing, Communications, and Sociology. excited! anxious! nervous! intrigued!
• Meaghan HAS TO win Canada's Next Top Model.
  just throwing that out there.

xoxo

quote

"There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it. "

-George Bernard Shaw

big day

• slept in til noon after being out til 2
• (did you know that Margherita's is open until 3 a.m. on fridays and saturdays?!)
• ordered my laptop! i cannot wait to get my hands on my sleek, white MacBook. be prepared for the possibility of a lot more late night/early morning blogs. college life is feeling more and more like a reality.
• my laptop comes with a free 8GB iPod Touch :)
• finally got hired Davison's Orchard. i'll be working in the market, making ice cream & pies and cashiering. it could've been so much worse :)
• bought a much-needed bathing suit
• chatted with an oh-so-charming cashier named Wade at Save On Foods. i always seem to have some kind of conversation with the majority of their staff :)

hmmm

"beware my girlfriend"

...oh no.

bewildered

question:

what do you do when a boy, who's a year older, who you kind of knew throughout high school sends you a facebook message out of NOWHERE (and i mean nowhere) that says:

"Emma! Oh my goodness!

I thought about you yesterday.

I'll be in town for awhile, I'd really like to see you.

Let me take you out for lunch ;)

Text me [cell number here] "

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU DO?!